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..............................Wait.
                                Waitaminute.

That's certainly not $53487. (the cost of ONE YEAR)
Huh.

Welp. Guess that's that. 

Seriously though, that's about it. Nothing I can do about it.
I'm not mad or sad because for one, I've trained myself not to worry about such things, and two, I felt more free after receiving the news than if I had gotten the scholarship. Let me explain:

First of all, I'm not going to art college.
Second, I'm gonna have to leave my house before my mom kills me deader than dead. Because she will do it, man. SHE WILL.

But the real reason I feel free is because I've given myself permission not to go. To not care what my mom or my peers think. Instead, I can go do things that will earn money instead of putting me in debilitating debt. (Check out Blake Boles) Even if I had gotten the scholarship and gone to school, how much time and money would I waste being forced to take classes I don't need in order maintain high grades just to to keep the scholarship money?  

Answer: A LOT (of time and money. The scholarship doesn't cover everything, yo.)

One thing the scholarship result told me is I NEED TO STEP MY ART GAME UP. 
All the previous stuff was child's play, apparently. I barely got a fraction of my tuition paid, man!

So here's the plan, y'all:

I'm gonna have to move out. Not right now. But around school time, sometime in August. Virtually disappearing from the internet for a while (sorry!). Then I want to start a online website of some kind. Something that'll provide value to millions of artists. Something I wish I had when I was just starting out. I already have all the details worked out in my head. 

After one or two startups like that, I want to take the money earned from that, and help out my parents and show them (and everyone in my church (of Nigerians)) you don't need a degree to be successful. I also want to show my brother the amazing things you can do when you put your mind to it, and empower him and my sister to do the same. I will also tell my sister to "suck it!". That'll be the day.

Then, with all the time and money I will have saved (and earned) not going to college, I will lean fully into making Guillan Seed truly great, and go to an atelier, like Watts Atelier where I can learn even more than I already know about art! I'll be free to learn as much as I can without worrying about a day job or unnecessary classes. 

I know this all sounds pretty idealistic (and it is), and I don't know how much time it'll take, or how to get it all done, I know God's got my back and I have a definite plan to carry out, so no matter what happens, I'm good.
Maybe not safe, or comfortable, or well-fed, but I'll be fine.

This is only the first true leg of the journey, friends.
When Guillan Seed is finished, 
I'm off to Japan